Theory of Desolation.

All this time has gone like water in my hands,
Burning something inside my heart.
As these wounds were kept in silence,
Earthquakes came to me silently too.

Daydreams of a colored reality,
Sugarless cups of tea,
Resting on the grass, watching the sea,
All just by myself is no more than a simple shell.

Angels in my head, hopes of a future,
Charcoal illusions, ephemeral love.
So many routes, so far away,
Last images, memories, tastes.

Still touching your skin, still calling your name,
Faith in wisdom, smelt of you.
Over-honesty maybe, to torture my sad brain,
Give me answers, any guiding.
Anesthetize me once again!

Feeling stupid, lost, enchained,
Immobilized, out of my self,
Back to Earth, to deception,
A boat that’s never going to sail.

Cats in outter space, sad songs,
Cigarette smoke, hands shivering,
Smiles, lies, bad nightmares.

Paintings, drawings, songs of mine,
Whole days chatting, wasting time.
Premonitions, you and I,
All of this just to say goodbye.

Ten

How to start a tribute to your name
If just a few would understand these words?
How to explain the way I actually feel
If you understand better than me?

I see your bed of flowers
And sometimos I’d like to be here with you,
Though I know Lord knows why things happen,
But your silence seems so warm.

As butterflies fly around your litter,
Some of us cry by remembering you.
I’m not that kind of man, cause I know what you expect from me;
Despite the layer of ground between us,
I feel your nurturing touch in my forehead,
Your embrace in the wind,
Your voice in the sea,
Your smile in the clouds,
Sometimes, your face in the full moon.

Very few tears have fallen from my eyes for you,
Just because I’ve always felt you beside me.
Can’t feel you away from me, it’s like my heart,
Like if we were no more than one.

Don’t care what others think,
Don’t care about the time, about the age, about death,
I’ll love you till the end of times, as much as you loved me.
Now tears come to read my writing, but gratitude keeps them inside.

Don’t you worry about me,
Don’t waste any minute of eternal bliss,
The halo you deserve lights my way to you.
Just like those time in the nineties,
I hear a tango, remembering us together, sitting in a kitchen.

Then I remember my dreams, the only door for you to come.
I covet sleep for seeing your face again,
By now I feel your nurturing touch in my forehead,
Your embrace in the wind,
Your voice in the sea,
Your smile in the clouds,
Sometimes, your face in the full moon.

I made my promise, you can rest by now,
Sleep still waiting for the day of the real and eternal embrace to come.
Soon.

Ghost of me.

In a night of ghosts I lay writing with my blood:
As there’s no more alcohol to calm the storms in my head,
I’m waiting like a homeless dog waits for a master to take it home,
For an inspiration for my heart beat.
As I look the smoke going out of my mouth,
My hands are still trembling with no sense of what is real,
As I have no sense of what I feel,
Everything I could read said:

Aren’t you ashamed?
Where is now your faith?
Weren’t you supposed to stand in dignity ‘till the end?
Look at you now,
What are those tears about?
Do you even care?

And all I said was ‘no’.

All the sweet smells, all the crazy things, every memory seems stoned down in ground by now,
All the creepy smiles, all the wounds of pain, nothing but the sorrow seems to fill now my brain.
Where have I gone? How could I forget? All I can say by now is:

Aren’t you ashamed?
Where is now your faith?
Weren’t you supposed to stand in dignity ‘till the end?
Look at you now,
What are those tears about?
Do you even care?

I just know I don’t know.

Night has called my name,
Now I’m nothing but a ghost,
Where could I have gone?

I look over my shoulders,
All I've left behind:
There’s no more night.

Habana

A cloudy night in La Habana,
Weeping’s running in the air.
Stars are hiding in the dark,
There’s no heaven we could share.

As the music comes to my ears,
As my mind is turning blue,
I’m standing next to my fears,
Tasting memories of you…

Away from you…
Oh, where are you?
Without you…
I don’t know how to come through.

Hurts the time’s run in despair.
Your shadow’s come to haunt my brain,
Rain is falling against my face.
It’s no use trying to forget, that smile.
So bring me moonlight.
Please.

Salsa sounds along the streets
Make me know it’s not the end.
Though the world’s still not complete,
There’s no life to feel unfair.

Though I know you won’t be there,
Though the ocean calls my name,
I’m still breathing, eyes are open.
Blood is running, mind is yours.

I’m away from you…
I can’t find you…
I just ask this moon
To light my way back soon.

Hurts the time’s run in despair.
Your shadow’s come to haunt my brain,
Rain is falling against my face.
It’s no use trying to forget, that smile.
So bring me moonlight.
Please.

Sand of sorrow under me,
Sea of tears touching my feet.
I’ll let my feelings free to fly,
As if they were whispers to the night…

Hurts the time’s run in despair.
Your shadow’s come to haunt my brain,
Rain is falling against my face.
It’s no use trying to forget, that smile.
So bring me moonlight.
Please.

Silent Sunrise in La Habana…

Lisa's Baby.

Lisa, Lisa, wake up.
The boy’s in the bathroom again,
What is he doing there?

Lisa,
Your child looks like a whisper of wind,
What is wrong with him?

Lisa,
His skin’s white like the pale snow
Stop him from killing himself!

He’s gone insane,
And you’re the blame,
You have to stop him for making mistakes!
Just open your eyes,
Before it’s too late,
And see that death in his face!

Lisa, your baby is fading,
Lisa, your baby is fading away.
His image vanishes through the air
He’s fading away…

Lisa,
Take a look at the blood running down his arms
to the floor.

Lisa,
Your boy isn’t eating,
Did you know?

Lisa,
You have to do something right now!

Lisa,

Lisa!

Lisa, your baby is fading.
Lisa, your baby is fading away.
The light in his eyes is now gone,
It’s been replaced for skin and bones.
His soul’s turning weak,
He never speaks.
Do you know what you have to do?

Lock him. Lock him. Lock him. Lock him. Lock him.
So he won’t be ever able to do that again.
Forbid him. Forbid him.
He’s crazy, can’t you see?

Hold him! Hold him! Hold him!
Don’t let him decrease anymore.

Control him! Now!

He’ll understand one day…
If he doesn’t…
Who cares?

Lisa, your baby is fading!
Oh, Lisa, your baby is fading away!
The boy is dying,
The boy is dying.
And now you’re fading… to me.